Week 5 (2/9-2/16)

 

This week I decided to make another drawing on my iPad. This time was a lot easier than the first blog and I also wasn’t super technical with drawing perfect lines which was something I struggled with on the first one. Instead, I just let myself sort of scribble on the brain part of the drawing and erase what I didn’t like. Overall, I’m really pleased with how it turned out and think my work is becoming more of what I envision.

The drawing of the brain with flowers sprouting out of it was something that fitted my mentality shift this week. I felt incredibly down after getting grades back that I wasn’t pleased with and just overloaded with work. Around Thursday, I decided to look at things differently. I reminded myself of where I want to be in the future and how the work I’m doing now will get me there, even if it doesn’t feel like I’m moving forward all the time.  I began to look at my future as a motivation to study harder and take care of myself. This mentality shift gave me clarity and will to keep working hard until the end of this week. On Thursday evening and Friday, I was much more rejuvenated and focused on getting my work done. I felt both my mental and physical health were much better on those days than previous ones.

I decided to draw a brain to emphasize the big change in my mentality for the week. The flowers are nurtured with positive mentality. The colors are also significant as the colors on the brain are the same as the colors on the flowers. I wanted to focus on how my mentality impacts the future I want for myself. It gives me a clear route and will continue to help me stay focused.  

Creating this drawing brought me happiness as I was making it and I felt very relaxed afterwards. I was feeling anxious beforehand thinking about the next week and what I must get done so doing this practice helped ground me. I’ve realized that doodling or crafting has improved my wellbeing in the last couple of weeks so I’ve tried taking more time to do them.