Week 4: 2/2-2/9

This week I chose to make a drawing on a small post-it note that resembled how I felt for most of the week. My health was not the best as I had a lot of stressful events like exams and big assignments that were constantly on my mind. I thought that drawing a person in a storm would be a good representation of these feelings, but I wasn’t sure how I wanted to portray that. I ended up settling on an individual sitting in the storm, because I felt that I could not do anything but simply survive the storm this week. On top of that, I thought that it would be fitting to hide the face of the individual with a mass of lines because there was so much going on that I was overthinking and trapped in. Though I might have appeared peaceful or “in control” there was so much that felt out of my control and scary. The picture depicts the opposite of what “clarity” looks like to me. But this week was just that, and I think it helped me see that clarity does not always mean I have to look ahead, but instead I must focus on what I can control in the moment.

               I created this artwork after most events had already passed and I was feeling relieved. I think in my head, it felt like a step back from how I felt doing last week’s blog post, but I am proud of myself that I tuned in to my emotions even though they were not the best. I felt a release of tension as if I was letting go of everything that happened and found acceptance in how things played out. I know that this week was one of many that will be incredibly challenging for me this semester. I am planning on keeping the small sketch on my dresser as a reminder that I can successfully make it through and feel stronger in the end.